There are a few songs that always make me think of Caroline. Sometimes they make me smile, and sometimes they make me cry, but they all are carried in a special place in my heart. Sometimes music is the only way to put your finger on a feeling that you can’t quite describe.
This first song was my anthem during Caroline’s pregnancy: Brave by Sara Bareilles. It played on the radio on the way to the hospital and while there, we found her singing it in a concert while flipping through TV channels. I don’t think that was a coincidence.
This next song touched me both before and after Caroline was born: Let Her Go by Passenger. I remember hearing it on the radio after getting Caroline’s diagnosis and bursting into tears. I had the same experience a few weeks ago when it was again on the radio. I didn’t want to let her go but I didn’t have a choice.
This final song reminds me of the love I have for my daughter: All of Me by John Legend. It usually makes me smile, but occasionally leads to tears. My husband claims that I ruined the song for him because I told him that it reminds me of Caroline and now he cries every time he hears it. I don’t think I ruined it though; I think it’s the perfect love song for our little girl.
Missing you, Miss Caroline.