I often find myself wondering about heaven. I wonder what Caroline is doing and if she knows how our family is doing. I think her great grandma Joan was there to greet her. I imagine that in heaven, there is no concept of time and Caroline won’t have to miss us because all of a sudden we will be there with her. I also think that she is wrapped in the greatest love. I think children have a special place in heaven.
I wonder if we get a glimpse of heaven through dreams. I often have dreams where I am simply an observer of events, or my perspective jumps around from person to person and somehow that is all normal. I wonder if Caroline can sometimes take my perspective to spend time with me.
I wonder how old she’ll be when I see her again. I wonder if we’ll be able to talk or if I’ll be able to rock her in my arms. Or maybe the connection of our souls will be all I need to recognize my little girl.
I pray that Caroline is happy. I miss her every second of every day. Mom will be with you soon, sweetheart.