This past weekend, my husband and I went away to the city to spend some time together. We visited the zoo, and as we went to the visitors center to get a map, we saw a group of about 4 children with special needs and their parents. The children were in the type of wheelchair that I only dreamed of needing for Caroline.
Something struck me when I saw this group. I felt a sense of camaraderie with them, even though I carry Caroline in my heart. I am the mother of a child with special needs, even though no one can see it. I thought it was wonderful that they had all found each other and were able to have a beautiful day at the zoo together. I didn’t have support from other parents like this when Caroline was here with us. I felt an urge to talk to them and hear their stories, but I held back. I didn’t want to disturb them, so I kept walking.
We got our maps and came out of the visitors center, and they were gone. I asked my husband if he had noticed the children, and he gave me a knowing smile. Of course he had. Caroline is always at the forefront of our minds, and seeing those families was a glimpse of what could have been if she was still here with us.